Ifs Buzzing Around

And why they refuse to land.

Photo by Marten Newhall on Unsplash

They say nightmares are a defense mechanism,
all the worst outcomes crawling out from your subconscious
as a mercy — a forewarning, a shot at preparedness.

So why am I still dreaming of you?

Why do I wake
feeling confused and sorry
more than scared or angry, anymore?